Monday Thoughts

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Knowledge, truth, lies. Faith, fear, conspiracy theories, research.

This blog is just some random thoughts I have from time to time. But let me start with the fact that I’ve never paid much attention to politics. I just live my day to day life as best I can with the cards I’ve been dealt.

We are living in scary times. So much is changing at a rapid speed it’s hard to keep up with all of it. In fact you could lose your mind trying to.

If I had to put a time stamp on when this all started I would say it started when Donald J Trump became president. Nobody expected it. I even thought what a joke. Trump running for president. He’s not a politician, he’s a business man, and a reality t.v. personality. What does he know about running a country?

Then he got elected. I was like ok let’s see what he can do. Not that it mattered much, because I never paid attention. I don’t understand foreign policies, not even sure who our allies are. None of that really mattered because for all these years OUR voices didn’t really matter.

Sure from time to time A “President” would give the people what they wanted. But juuuust enough to appease the people. Juuuuust enough to keep that vote for the next election. ONLY to rewrite it so that THEY gain and WE THE PEOPLE lose.

Most times politicians lie. They don’t blatantly lie. No, they mince words. They choose their words carefully and speak them in such a way that they have two meanings.

Soon as Donald J Trump became president, it seemed as if most of the people in “the house” went into a panic. Nancy Pelosi made it her job to impeach him. It looked like that was her ONLY job. Then of course she had her minions trying to dig up dirt on the president. The Russian collusion was a farce. A fake dossier that was paid for. Then there was “abuse of power” also referred to as quid pro quo. And of course let’s not forget about the “insurrection”. I’m sure there are others he’s been accused of that I’ve missed. But you get my point.

Let’s address the Russian situation. You know the one that MSM tried to squash when it was about Hunter Biden. When Hunter was on the board of an oil company. Getting paid over eighty thousand A MONTH. Does Hunter even have experience or knowledge of the oil industry? That question is irrelevant, because people would say Trump has no knowledge of how to run a country but he was president. BUT, at a point when Hunter was on the board there came an investigation, and daddy Biden told someone to fire the investigator. Daddy Biden told the person if you don’t fire said investigator, we’re (obama & Biden) not going to give you the billion dollar loan. Said investigator was fired. THATS ON VIDEO. So the Russian collusion turns out to be Biden and son. But MSM squashed it as quickly as it was leaked. That’s just one if many examples of whats been going on.

But we had 4 years of investigations on THEN president Trump. Not to mention the absolute detestation and pure lies MSM spewed from their networks.

Some of the good President Trump did was lowered our taxes. Placed tariffs where they should have been. Lowered medications. He built the wall, kept illegal immigrants from getting here illegally. Helped the immigrants who came here the right way.

Now let’s fast forward to the Corona virus. Covid-19, China virus, Wuhan virus. Pick a name any name you want to call it. It is a virus. Now I don’t dispute if the virus is real or not. Clearly there is a virus. But I do question if said virus is as deadly as they made it out to be. I also question why there was no influenza cases. Did the flu get replaced by Corona?

Did Covid-19 cause the thousands or millions of deaths that was initially reported? We was lied to from the very start of this “virus” President Trump was right from the beginning. I know people who got said virus. They recovered from the virus, and are doing just fine.

There was so much going on about this virus. They said we needed to wear masks, wash our hands. We need to do this for 2 weeks. Then it was still wear the mask but we need to shut the country down. ONLY ESSENTIAL WORKERS. Restaurants, bars, and small business closed. Walmart,and Grocery stores stayed upen as well as fastfood joints. You know the big corporations. But When President Trump ceased travel from China to United States he was called a xenophobe. Yet we had to close the country for (2 weeks) that turned into a year.

That (2weeks) has done more damage than the people in charge want to admit to. Example, loss of jobs, because small businesses can’t recoup from such a long shut down. Thats the start of mental health going. You start to worry about how you’re going to live without a source of income. Schools getting shutdown now parents have to find daycare if said parent is an ESSENTIAL WORKER. Now the schools are setting up for zoom classes. Children NEED social interaction.

This (2week) year long shut down has caused people to be stressed. People are now angry, hurt, and scared. This is JUST about the virus. I have mentioned the hate MSM showed towards president Trump. Let me give you an example. They push that President Trump is a racist, he supports white supremacy. Now as I’ve said before I never paid attention to politics. Mostly because I didn’t understand a lot of it, but also I was just focusing on surviving. I literally work paycheck to paycheck. I was busy working 2 jobs to make ends meet. I had to on many occasions write a check at the grocery store for a small amount over JUST to have gas money to put in my car to get to work. So all I had time for was sleep until my next shift. I didn’t have time to research current events going on. Then I got laid off in November of 2019. Then came the year 2020. I was going to re invent myself. I was going to school to get a better job mainly because I’m getting too old for manual labor. But also for a better paying job. But we had a (2 week) year long shutdown.

Because of said shutdown I had time on my hands. I started doing some crafting to keep myself and my mom occupied. My mom is an overthinker. She will think about something and create non existing problems. Plus I was trying to keep her from watching so much NEWS! But, one day she was watching t.v. and President Trump was giving us an update as far as whats going on with this virus. So I listened to him speak. That was his infamous speech when he told everyone to drink bleach, or some type if disinfectant. That became the argument for anyone who was for Trump. The apposing antiTrumper would say just go drink some bleach.

But that’s not what President Trump said at all. But MSM took it and ran with it. Not to mention that’s not the first or only misleading information MSM has put out there on President Trump. So because NOW I have time I started researching past presidents and speeches. I started comparing how MSM treated past presidents and how they reported on past presidents speeches. There was a lot of information to process. A lot of things had to be filtered through. But one thing I noticed was narratives.

Now it seems to me there is a goal here. I’m not 100% sure what exactly that goal is, but it seems like they have been trying to have a one world order. As it stands America is a free country. We have our rights written into a constitution. That is sacred and protected. Now I honestly don’t know about other countries. But it seems to me a certain group of people have been chipping away at said constitution. For years words are being RE defined to meet a narrative.

But let’s get back to the MSM with their lies and misinformation. As far as President Trump telling people to drink disinfectant that is CLEARLY not what he said or meant. However there is something with ultraviolet light used to disinfect the body. This is what President Trump was talking about. Ultraviolet germicidal irradiation is a disinfection method that uses short-wavelength ultraviolet light to kill or inactivate microorganisms by destroying nucleic acids and disrupting their DNA, leaving them unable to perform vital cellular functions. But MSM will say this. President Trump now says to drink bleach in order to get rid of the virus.

They have called him a racist, xenophobe, and says he not only supports white supremacy but that he himself is a white supremacist. All lies. He has denounced racism on many occasions. There was an incident in Charlottesville. This was in the time frame when I was still working, so I basically was informed of what happened. I seen only “key speaking” points of that incident. And yes the way MSM reported it, it looked like he was supporting the neo nazi group. HOWEVER once I decided to go back and research what REALLY happened or what was ACTUALLY said it was NOT the truth MSM reported. They edited his speech he made about Charlottesville incident. They edited it so it looks like he said they was good people. If people would take the time to resesrch. But the thing about that is, most people don’t have that time. Because they are working. And because they are working they rely in news outlets to get information.

Last summer there was a serious incident that happened and the WHOLE WORLD knew about it. Now there’s a lot to be said here. We all know about George Floyd. I want to make it clear THAT WAS A TERRIBLE SITUATION. I feel bad for the way he died. But because of that, for months we had riots. From those riots there was a lot of innocent people killed. Businesses was destroyed cities was set on fire. So much distruction in the name of racism. But is it really racism? This is a very sensitive topic. However most people have a Facebook account, and FB likes to remind you of a memory, something you posted a year a go, and then you look back on that memory, and there’s other memories. So one thing I noticed on this race war is… Race only seems to matter every 4 years. Ok stay with me here. Obama was elected on 2008, and re elected in 2012. If racism was a problem, why didn’t Obama address it? There are no laws in the books today that says you can’t because…. The truth is ANYBODY and EVERYBODY has an opportunity to be successful. However I wanted to point out that last year in July 4th 2020 President Trump went to Mount Rushmore and gave a speech to celebrate the 4th of July. News outlets called it despicable, said he was fueling white supremacy. But I looked to see what other presidents went to the same place, and Bill Clinton went there at one point. The news outlets THEN called it majestical, and praised it. Do the research your self. I am not making this up. That’s just a small bit on this race war.

I haven’t even started on this “insurrection”

Before we get to that, lets talk about how the left referred to last summers “protests” as MOSTLY PEACEFUL. Or lets talk about how Kamala set up an account to bail the protesters out of jail when they was arrested. Why was the protesters never referred to as terrorist? Now here we are a year later. Where are the leaders of BLM? Where did the 90 plus million dollars go? Did they put that money back into the black communities? Did the build better ANYTHING in said communities? Has ANYBODY from those communities benefited from those donations? One of the founders Patrisse Khan-Cullors recently purchased a home to the amount of 1.4 million dollars. That was in the NEW YORK POST. From the post it said the home was purchased in a predominantly white neighborhood. This group has proudly announced that they are a Marxist group. But if black lives really do matter, then why does BLM turn a blind eye when a black child is kilked by a stray bullet? Why are we NOT saying the names of these children killed by another black person. I do agree that black lives matter. But it CAN’T only be when an officer is involved. It has to matter ALL the time. EVEN when it’s black on black crime.

Now on this supposed insurrection. I watched the talks on rather or not to impeach him yet again. I found it interesting. There is so much to say here. When the left made their arguments they did the same thing MSM does. They edited the film. Showed only pieces of what President Trump said. They cut out the parts that didn’t fit their narrative. Of course when the defense made their argument, they played each edited part in it’s entirety.

This entire blog is written in hopes that people will read it and begin to question everything in recent events and begin to really look into how things are. It is in hopes that people will stop watching MSM and stop being told how to feel or how to think. It is in hopes that they will open their minds and pay attention to what’s being told, and how it’s being portrayed. News outlets need to quit playing on people’s emotions, and we as a people need to separate emotions and focus on logic. We need to get the full information before we react. There is so much more I could blog about, but for now I will leave it at this. I do hope it will make you stop and think and question these current events with an open mind.

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God We Need You Now.

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Struggle Jennings and Caitlynne Curtis

The world’s getting crazy, baby chill
Don’t medicate, just meditate
You waking up now, well babe you hella late
Educate, look at what’s going on and let it resonate
Accelerate, find your inner hunger like you never ate
Agenda is to push the hate, separate and segregate
Don’t celebrate quite yet, the storm is coming, cue for heaven’s sake
Violence that they demonstrate instigate and penetrate
The values of our country and our God is what they desecrate
My fighters ain’t no featherweight
Pulling out the seams of the fabric that they fabricate
They feed us lies, manipulate
Intimidate through fear and force, forcing us to sit and wait
Til we come together, congregate and then we liberate
Praying that you give me strength to find some love amongst the hate
Marching on theses streets of blood til I see the golden gates
Troubadour of troubled souls, one of God’s servants
Blades out, cut the grass til we see the serpents

One day I hope you see the truth
This puppet show stays on because of you fools
We’ve been dancing with the devil way too long
I know it’s fun but get ready to pay your dues
Oh God come back home
This crazy world is filled with liars and abusers
We need you now before we’re too far gone
I hope one day they finally see the truth
God we need you now

I know the truth is hard to swallow, just digest it
Suspected something’s going on but chose to just neglect it
Deflected by some breaking news, oh we just accept it
Expected just to fall in line and follow their perspective
Don’t question their objective but I gotta lot of questions
How these kids molested but nobody’s been arrested
Read it in the Testament these children are protected
So I’m fighting all these terrorist both foreign and domestic
Refuse to be directed, a Lion not a sheep
Only kneel to my God so I’m dying on my feet
Silence when we speak but there violence in the streets
I’ve been rolling with the punches, I can’t take it on the cheek
Drink from a glass half full, I’m optimistic
People are sadistic, so vicious and malicious
Praying for assistance to overcome opposition
Or I’m gonna start resisting and then I’ll pray for forgiveness

Oh one day I hope you see the truth
This puppet show stays on because of you fools
We’ve been dancing with the devil way too long
I know it’s fun but get ready to pay your dues
Oh God come back home
This crazy world is filled with liars and abusers
We need you now before we’re too far gone
I hope one day they finally see the truth
God we need you now
We need you now
We need you now
We need you now
We need you now
We need you now

One day, one day, one day
Oh one day I hope you see the truth
This puppet show stays on because of you fools
We’ve been dancing with the devil way too long
I know it’s fun but get ready to pay your dues
Oh God come back home
This crazy world is filled with liars and abusers
We need you now before we’re too far gone
I hope one day they finally see the truth
God we need you now

This song speak volumes. While I have to say I’m not crazy about Struggle Jennings delivery, I do love Caitlynne Curtis part.

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Life And Death

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I have so many thoughts that run through my mind while idle. My dad used to say idle hands is the devils workshop. I always understood it to mean stay busy. Find something to do and basically if you find yourself having bad or negative thoughts get busy, clean a room or rearrange the furniture just do not entertain those thoughts because that’s the devil.

There’s one thing I want to make clear here. I believe in God PERIOD. Not because I was raised to believe in him, but because of many factors in my life tells me he is real.  I am ok if you don’t believe in God that’s your choice. I will not try to force my beliefs on you and I ask that you don’t force your disbelief on me.  I will pay someday you see God’s glory.

Just because I say I believe in God, that  does not by any means, mean I don’t have my struggles. I question so many things. The answers are there, but in all honesty  I am either too lazy or scared to find the answers. Those reasons still do not negate my belief in God. We all have the questions of…..if God is all knowing then why…….

  • Why is there cancer?
  • Why is there famine?
  • Why are children suffering?
  • Why does YOUR God allow suffering?
  • Why don’t God end all wars?
  • Why didn’t God stop the car crash?
  • Why doesn’t God kill the devil?
  • Why does God allow people to have pain? {emotional and physical}
  • Why does God NOT answer your prayers?

 

This is just some of the questions I can think of that I get from the people who don’t believe in God. I am no bible scholar, or no historian researcher. I am nothing more than your average Jane Doe trying to live life. There are a few things I reflect on with some of my learning’s from the bible. It’s my understanding that Jesus is the son of God and he was sent here to be the ultimate sacrifice for our sins. {there’s so much more to it than JUST that} but Jesus said that the Apostle Peter would disown him 3 times before the rooster crows. There are many reasons that he disowned Jesus. From my young and naive understanding it was because Jesus was such a good man, He could heal the sick, bring the dead back to life with the explanation that he was only sleeping. So {in my understanding} Jesus did not deserve to die and certainly not in the manner that he was killed. I questioned why would a loving Father do such a thing to his child? But as usual I digress this is not what I wanted to write about.

I was wanting to express thoughts, sometimes when you don’t have a person to talk to about thoughts I find it better to write them. There are times when I try to articulate my thoughts they don’t make sense when I speak them.

So this life and death thing that I want to elaborate on.  No I’m not going on the   “philosophical” What is the meaning of life? or What is the/my purpose in life? Those questions are played out. {in my opinion} my thing is what happens when you’re still alive, but life in you is not? What if you’re in like a {purgatory} in life, and until you figure out why you, will stay there?  Not sure if purgatory is the exact word I should use, but it’s the word that comes to mind. I feel like I have lived this life and I know what it has to offer.  I feel like I have tread water to keep my head above the water but have gained no real ground to stand on.

I take responsibility for my bad decisions. But it feels like ironically when I try to make amends for my poor decisions the universe is against me and laughing at me {not in a literal sense} I’ve spoke on my decision to drop out of high school, I’ve also said I’m not proud of my decision,and how much I regret it. Hind sight is always 20/20.

Side note if there are any young folks reading this { even if it is for a good laugh} my advice to you is do not quit school.

But I still stand on the idea that once the basics are learned, lets start focusing on the future as far as skills, and start preparing the students for actual trade school, or even college. We know not EVERY  person can be the CEO of a corporation. I know back when I went to school there was different classes as far as for the students. Not different as far as Math, reading. science and so on I’m talking different as far as intelligence of the students. Of course I didn’t know this until halfway through high school, and I still don’t know how the teachers differentiated the students as far as putting t hem into what class, but I know of a few friends that had some sort of a prep classes for college. NOT A one of my teachers EVER spoke to the students as a whole about preparing for college.

What are the determining factors for a student to get into college prep classes? Why was  not all students given the same opportunity?  again I digress.

I don’t know what to do, or where to go. I have raised my son, in essence he no longer needs me. I know how that sounds, but that is the intent when you raise your children. You raise them to no longer need you. It’s not a bad thing. We will not live for forever { right now it seems like it} Part of parenting is teaching  your child to be self sufficient.

As I said, what if the life inside you is no longer, but according to science you’re not dead? IS there an in between living and death? What is that called? Not the UNdead, or the living dead. is there a name for that stage of existence? Is this an example of what happens when you die? I have never had a fear of death. But I have always been curious about it.

For example when we finally leave this earth, do we really see our loved ones that have passed on before us? Will they know us? What about the ones who passed before we was born? I know I’m not the only one who thinks about these things.  Well maybe in my family I might be but I know I’m not the only one in the world that thinks about these things. There was a phrase in a movie I watched years ago and that phrase has stayed etched in my mind every since then. the quote is…..

I will have a wish for death long before death finds me

I have wished for death a very long time. I am not suicidal lets get that clear right now. Thou shall not kill. even if it’s suicide it is still a killing. I know there at least 3 unforgivable sins.

  • Blasphemy against the Holy Spirit
  • Apostasy a willful defection from the faith
  • receiving the mark of the beast

Now y’all please don’t think I’m some holy roller yelling at everybody to get saved, or calling out their sins. Because you can trust I have plenty of my own sins to atone for. Straight is the gate,  and narrow is the way, which leadeth unto life, and few there be that find it.

I know the bible talks about hell, there for I know there must be such a place.  My dad used to say I know I’m going to heaven because I’ve lived in hell on earth

There was one thing my dad used to say that I didn’t understand for a long time, but now I get it crystal clear. He used to say you’re supposed to rejoice at passing and weep at birth. Now I understand it very well. The tears for a birth is the beginning life and all the ups and downs. But to rejoice is ones passing is they no longer have to worry. They no longer have to deal with this thing called life. The irony of this is when ever there is a death I still cry. I jokingly say they are the lucky ones. But then as I write this maybe that’s why I cry, because I am still here dealing with life, and that’s when I think it’s Gods way of punishing me. Because I know God will provide you what you need not what you want.

well there’s that thought out in the open. Now maybe I can be productive for the rest of the day. now that I got that off my chest.

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No Longer Able To Play The Optimist.

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There’s a monster inside of me, eating away at my smile,
He takes all my sadness and makes a file.

These files are all stacked up in my brain.
Now my whole life just consists of pain.

It’s such a problem that I can’t sleep.
Nothing works…not even counting sheep.

When I’m in public I hide my tears.
It’s been this way for several years.

I hide my sadness behind a fake smile,
But the pain won’t go away…not for a while.

The hardest part is hiding when I cry.
It makes me feel like I’m going to die.

I feel like I’m slowly going insane,
But I am not the one to blame…

Blame the monster.
He goes by the name…Depression.

I’m just waiting for the monster to go to sleep now.

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My Personal Struggle With Obesity Day???

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Don’t believe my words;
they’re lies that I fabricate to
project a perfect life and
convince you I’m okay. Don’t trust the smile you see;
it’s a facade to conceal
searing pain, acute shame,
sheer heartache.

Don’t get fooled by my laughter;
it is merely an echo
of hollow insides, yearning
for senses to return.

Don’t get convinced by my clarity and order;
borne in attempt to
control the chaos
and pacify the storm brewing inside.

Don’t be blinded by
The perfection I exude,
The courage I fake,
The innocence I feign,
The confidence I wear-
For I am broken.

So apparently I am not always consistent. but then again I knew that and now my few readers are going to know that about me.

Motivation:

noun
  1. the reason or reasons one has for acting or behaving in a particular way.

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My Personal Struggle With Obesity Day 2

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So yesterday was a trying day. I did not workout, but I managed to fast the entire day until dinner. I think I enjoyed the salad better than I did the steak.

Soon as I finish this quick blog I will be taking a walk. To be honest the reason I didn’t do any form of exercise is because I felt tired, due to not eating, combined with depression. So I just stayed in bed.

I’m pretty sure I’ve had this depression crap for years, but since I’m not working now and I have time on my hands I tend to remind myself of all my failures. When I was working I didn’t have time to think, I just kept pushing forward. Go to work, get home do what needs to be done around the house. Cook clean wash clothes raise my son. You know life in general.

So now I’m trying to take this “free” time and make it “time” for me. But that number 74 is a pretty big number. With that weight loss goal, I have a question. How often should I weigh myself? OR should I look for different signs? Like my clothes fitting better or loosely? What are some good healthy snack items? I did buy some rice cakes I heard those are a good snack item, they have flavored ones now. But I don’t want to live on salad’s everyday as a meal. I will be looking into other healthy foods. I plan to try sweet potato french fries cooked in an air fryer, and zucchini fries as well. But let me be honest here vegetables are NOT my favorites

Ok short and sweet. But I look forward to any and all suggestions

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My Personal Struggle With Obesity

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I have not had a theme for any of my blogs. Basically just rambling thoughts. However I think I’m going to leave my comfort zone. I’m going to hold myself accountable and start a weight loss journal.

Since I have been out of work, and lets just go ahead and throw the pandemic in here, I have gained some weight. I have always struggled with weight. Society has this idea of what we should look like, but I really just want to be at a healthy weight. So here I go.

  • Day one 5/12/2021
  • Weight 214.2

My goal weight.. Is140.00. My target weight loss is 74lbs.

So far this morning I’ve only had 2 cups of coffee. Today my plan is to fast. Now I don’t know much about the keto, or intermittent fasting, so basically I’m going to wing it. I plan to make healthier choices. I plan to have a steak and salad tonight for dinner and that will be my only meal for today. I will however be drinking plenty of water, and tea.

I have learned that sugar is the culprit. I shamefully admit I have a sugar addiction. I crave sweets and when I have them I WILL NOT STOP eating it until it’s gone. I’m not proud of that fact. But knowing it is part of the battle. Now I plan to stop eating sugery foods. But as a sourherner I will NEVER drink unsweetened tea (that’s blasphemy) and I will continue putting sweetener in my coffee. It’s way to bitter with out. However I think cutting, or weaning myself off sugar by NOT eating candy, cakes, and icecream is a good start. BABY STEPS.

I’ll be back tomorrow with an update, and what I did if I worked out.

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Alone

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Edgar Allen Poe

From childhood’s hour I have not been
As others were — I have not seen
As others saw — I could not bring
My passions from a common spring —
From the same source I have not taken
My sorrow — I could not awaken
My heart to joy at the same tone —
And all I lov’d — I lov’d alone —
Then — in my childhood — in the dawn
Of a most stormy life — was drawn
From ev’ry depth of good and ill
The mystery which binds me still —
From the torrent, or the fountain —
From the red cliff of the mountain —
From the sun that ’round me roll’d
In its autumn tint of gold —
From the lightning in the sky
As it pass’d me flying by —
From the thunder, and the storm —
And the cloud that took the form
(When the rest of Heaven was blue)
Of a demon in my view —

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The Ongoing Battles With My Demons. By Patricia A. Fleming

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The night was long as I lay awake,
Anxiety choking like a poisonous snake.
My self-hatred grows like some malady
That I pray will soon be the death of me.

Being hated and scorned is painful indeed,
And that love can be torture, we all must concede,
But to be ignored and forgotten can vanquish one’s heart
Until it’s in pieces, just shattered apart.

To feel nonexistent is so hard to abide,
When you know that your heart is still beating inside.
And how do you save your sinking soul,
When you feel yourself plummeting into that hole?

My dreams don’t provide any rest or relief;
They only replay my regrets and my grief.
I honestly don’t know how I came to this place,
But it’s clear to me now that there is no escape.

You may call me weak and lowly at best.
I’m trapped in self-pity, I must confess.
I long for some quiet, just a moment of peace,
But my negative voice refuses to cease.

My greatest enemy resides within,
But how can I battle myself and win?
I find this a callous, duplicitous life,
Not worth any effort to fight the good fight.

Surviving, instead of living each day,
Sheltered inside sturdy walls I create.
Fleeting moments when hope will linger so nigh,
But those feelings of wretchedness still once again rise.

Getting through every moment and each empty day,
Feeling lost and panicked in this chaotic maze.
Still not giving up and not giving in,
With my greatest fear being that it won’t ever end.

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Rainy Day pt 4

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This is possibly the last installment of rainy day. The cake saga is completed.

So let me just say it’s been quite a few years since I last made a “novelty” cake. Probably at least 6 or 7 years. I’m not happy with it, I know I could have done better. So lets start with the excueses. First off I am no Cake Boss. I have had ZERO cake decorating classes.

Secondly my kitchen is so flipping small. There are literally only 2 counters one at the back wall and the other is where the sink is and each counter is probably 3 to 3 and a half feet. So there’s very little to no counter space. And C so many interruption. Fourth I had eyes looking, watching and judgemental questioning. So theres the excuses.

But I know this… My son will love the fact that I made some little roses. I used to have tons of cake decorating supplies, but they’re all packed away and in storage. But I did what I could with what I had, AND in a tiny kitchen to boot. So with out further ado here’s the infamous cake that I scratched together for my sons birthday that he spent with his girlfriend .