Sunday

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Well to my surprise I apparently had auto renew set to my word press. Soooo I was just charged to continue blogging.😶

However, the issue or issues I’m having is TIME! I work 10 to 12 hour shifts. Whule I am so very grateful that I have a job, I now don’t have time for my “hobby” not like it matters much, I never made not one single sale.

Maybe I’ll look at this as an extended opportunity to continue to try.

Also any one who IS following me thank you, but for some reason I can’t seem to follow back. I will look into this and try to figure out why. Until then I hope y’all enjoy my crazy random blogs.

The Virus

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What a month I have had. So to start with August 14, my son was vistiting me like he does every weekend. But this Sunday morning I detected he wasn’t feeling well. Of course we both just figured it was sinuses flairing up. However after he left to go home, he ended up coming back to my house because there was some issues with some neighbors being loud over at his place. Somebody’s birthday or something. He has always had sleep issues ALL his life. I remember when he was young, if this child fell asleep in the car on the way to the store, if he just got a little cat nap it was like he was fully charged and could go another 16 hours. So I would do things like tell to look for the elephant, or lion, or ANY type of animal in the sky, JUST to keep him awake. I learned that if I woke him up early, let him spend his energy he would sleep at night. Then came kindergarten. They had a flipping NAP time because state law requires kindergarten students take a nap. However I spoke with his teacher and said he cannot have a nap. She asked what did I suggest during nap time. We got that settled, but I always knew if there was a substitute, because he woukd be awake untill 2 or 3 in the morning. I took him to school the next day and asked if there was a substitute, and the teacher said yes I was out yesterday, why do you ask? I explained that my son was awake until the early morning. The school apparently didn’t realize how vital it was that he not have a nap. To be honest, I think he had a mild case of hyper activity. However as a parent I was consistent with him. He knew if he acted out of line there would be consequences. Because I did not want to put him on medication.

So fast forward to now he’s a grown man. (gawd he grew too fast) He has always needed complete dark and silence to go to sleep. But you cannot control what other people do. So he came back here. I think it’s really because he’s not feeling well, but he did go to work that Monday, he said he felt worse, but would try to make it. Then he seen his girlfriend and she told him she wasn’t feeling well either. Long story short she went and took tge covid test, it came back positive. So he decided to take the test and yep positive as well. Now I never went to get tested, however because they have it I naturally assumed I got it.

Now here’s the concern. Y’all all know I take care of my elderly mother who has asthma/COPD amongst other health problems. I was so scared she was going to get it. However we took major precautions. We, my son and I stayed in one room for the most part. When we came out of the room we carried lysol and sprayed the areas we was in. We NEVER came out of the room without a mask on, and we never came out if anybody was in the front of the house.

Now that being said. Having the virus was like having a winter cold for my son and myself. We had a few days of your typical body aches. But mostly we was fatigued. We slept a lot. My son had told me he couldn’t taste or smell anything. Then I noticed I couldn’t smell or taste anything. In fact the only thing I could almost taste was grapes. And to be honest THAT was the MOST frustrating part of the virus. Not being able to smell or taste. It remined me of a movie I seen I can’t remember the title, but there was a guy who was an alcoholic. In the movie he couldn’t get his thirst quenched. He literally drank himself to death because he couldn’t get the thirst quenched. I think it was from the movie Hell Raiser you know the old movie with pinhead. But I’m not sure. Any way, it kind of felt like that. Because we wanted food, but we didn’t enjoy it because we couldn’t taste it or smell it.

During that time my son and I are sick, my mom is doing things like cooking, baking, and cleaning up the kitchen. Then after 10 days my son goes back to retest and it came back negative. YAY! However we still couldn’t smell or taste. We had a little jar of vics vapor rub. We used that for our smell test. Then little by little our taste and smell came back. Now I feel lije we are back to our normal selves again. We can smell and taste. But that is certainly not something I woukd want to go through again. It’s so wierd to not smell or taste. But the fact that nothing computes when you attempt to smell something it’s just blank.

So finally things get back to sort of normal, my son went back to work Wednesday after labor day. BUT now my mom is in pain. She’s telling me her stomach and back is hurting her. So on Tuesday the day right after labor day we visited an urgent care. We spent 5 hours there because they did all kinds of lab work. They diagnosed her with gastritis. Gave her a prescription for Pepcid AC. Then come Saturday she was still in pain and wanted to go to another ER because she didn’t like the previous diagnosis. Long story short same diagnosis. I tried to explain to her that when I was sick, and you doing all that cooking, you may have over exerted youself. Because I was doing everything. All she had to do was relax. Even when I was working, I came home and took care of cooking dinner and cleaning. So that 2 weeks I was sick she did too much and hurt herself.

I also know a part of this act is because she don’t want me to go back to work. She does not like being alone. I wished my ecommerce would have done well, but I just couldn’t get it off the ground.

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Monday

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Well here we are Monday again. Here I am with nothing to blog about. I am supposed to be having positive aspects. I’m not supposed to be feeling frustrated or irritated or defeated. Yet here I am feeling all of that negativity.

I just spent the weekend going through my projects. I ended up throwing some of them away, and putting other stuff in the attic. As I’ve said before I live in a small house (duplex) actually. I want to quit, and just get a job. At least that way I have a guaranteed source of income. Or win the lottery 😂 😶

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Good Morning

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Good morning beautiful people. I hope your morning is going well. Because mine didn’t start out to well, but I not mad. I woke up late. I had planned to go to walmart early in the morning to get some fabric for some new projects. I still got there early, thank goodness. I found some cute fabric for a baby blanket. SO EXCITED! I’m fixing up some gift baskets for a baby shower. Hopeful to sell them. I’m also going to add some things needed when you have a new bundle of joy. Like some diapers, a burping cloth, some baby wipes, some stuff for their little bottom. And a few other little necessities.

I remember when my son was born, I couldn’t use disposable diapers for him. I bought the cheapest to the most expensive, and all of them made his bottom fire red. I had to use cloth diapers. Funny story though. So my mom threw me a baby shower and she invited a friend we’ve known for YEARS. She couldn’t think of anything to get me, so she made up a few items into a gift basket. One of the items was cloth diapers. She asked me not to announce her gift because she was embarrassed of what she got me. She was the only one who got me the cloth diapers. She said if anything you can use them as a burping cloth. So I had to call her and let her know, that it was an awesome gift because he couldn’t use disposable diapers. We laughed. So any way I just wanted to share that with y’all.

I’m so excited to start these new projects. I will be posting photos in the coming weeks. But for now I have to get busy. Have a wonderful day. Be safe, and be kind.

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Emotional Effects of Narcissistic People in Long-term Exposure.

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The effects of psychological and narcissistic abuse come with many devastating consequences, but there are two that almost no one knows about unless they’re a doctor or neuroscientist.

In fact, these two outcomes may be the most destructive result of emotional trauma over the long-term and is an added reason why if you have children with a narcissistic partner you should try to leave as soon as reasonably possible.

I grew up in a narcissistic house where one of my parents was a covert narcissist. The covert narcissist is very secretive. No one outside the house hold would even consider entertaining the idea of said person to be a narcissist in any way shape or form. But if you’ve been the target of a covert narcissist, only you know who this person really is. You know the cruel things this person says to you. Only you know the gaslighting this person does to you. I’ve noticed changes within myself that I feel are the effects of this abuse. Please don’t think I’m playing victim here, because I’m not, however I’m blogging this to try and help others to recognise the abuse and know THEY are NOT the problem. I am hoping this will help them to make the changes needed to begin living a normal happy life. But to also seek help because as I wrote in the first part of this blog, long term narcissistic abuse can effect the brain. I am just now learning about this and want to share this for anybody who find themselves in an abusive relationship, or even come to terms with a parent being a narcissist.

I have blogged about how I used to be as a person. I used to be a fun person. I found humor in a lot of situations. I had funny comebacks. I had a mind that was strong. But through the years, I feel like my mind is not as sharp as it used to be. Through the years of having to account, or answer for EVERY detail of why….. Just as an example…. I most often now days just pull my hair up into a ponytail. But from time to time I might just do a half ponytail and leave half down. But when I do that, I get asked why do you have your hair like that? Quite frankly there’s no rhym or reason, I simply wanted to do the half ponytail. But in the mind of a narcissist there IS a hidden reason, and come hell or high water they WILL attach a reason to it; and that’s with EVERY aspect of your LIFE. If you’re the target of a narcissist, your life WILL be scrutinized. With EVERY move you make. You’re criticized on every little thing, and every word you say WILL be held against you. Be it your driving, the way you cook, the clothes you wear. And YOU are certainly held accountable for ANYTHING you say. For example. You say your plan is to try a new recipe for a dessert. BUT the day got away from you and decide to try it another time. Now comes the criticism. YOU didn’t do that new recipe YOU said you was going to try. Now we don’t have dessert after dinner tonight. (But it goes on with) sure would have been nice to try that new recipe. But somebody got lazy and decided not to try it. Maybe she lost her confidence and was afraid it wouldn’t be good. The narcissist means it to be harmful, to make you feel guilty, OH but the moment you try to defend yourself, NOW the narcissist was only kidding. NOW you’re too sensitive, NOW you don’t have to be so defensive. ( gas lighting)

I dislike using the (PTSD) because I really think it’s overused. But When I notice someone is gas lighting another person, (internally) I get so angry. I see and hear it, but I can’t say anything. Because of fear. I don’t want to make waves and create a problem for the other person being gaslighted. But I want to rescue that person, yet I don’t know if this person even realizes what’s really happening.

Other things a narcissist will do is use projection/gaslighting. They use this as distraction from their behavior. One thing a narcissist despise is staying on topic when there is an argument. They will bring up other topics that wasn’t even about the topic at hand. The next thing you know you’re arguing about something that may or may not have even occured. Being raised by a narcissist, as a child is confusing, becoming an adult from being raised by a narcissistic person is just as confusing, because you wasn’t allowed to have boundaries growing up, so you now as an adult have no boundaries. Then because of the way you was raised, you find yourself in a relationship with a narcissist. Because of the way you was raised it’s normalized. ( I hope this makes sense) Because I am now trying to make my life make sense.

I tend to get lost in my writing and go all over the place. I’m not even sure if anybody can comprehend what I’m trying to convey in some of my blogs. But here I am killin it. If anything maybe some folks get a good laugh at my writing skills. 😂 but at least I made someone smile or laugh. So I’m ok with that. And yes as always here’s my links to a few items I make. Trying to make my hobby a source of income until I hopefully soon get a job. Thanks for reading, and or clicking on my links. In the meantime I’m gonba try and get tiktok famous 😂😂😭😂😭😭😂😂😂😂😂 kidding I know I don’t have the personality to do it. 😂😂

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Empty Nest pt 2

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So the saga of my son and his girlfriend with the missing key to her car.

It is now believed that her Aunt’s son took the key. He’s a 14 yr old. The key is still missing from what I understand, but his girlfriend had a conversation with her Aunt, and her Aunt called the 14 yr old into the conversation. She asked him if he had the key, and the young boy was beyond angery. He was yelling and saying why am I always blamed. But he had so much anger in his voice. ( the girlfriend recorded the conversation then sent it to my son)

Now I know you can’t get a full picture or idea of their day to day life, JUST from one interaction. But from that little bit, it sounds to me like there’s a lot of toxicity within that family dynamics. Bottom line, the key is still missing. So my son had her go get a CLUB to lock her steering wheel.

My son now thinks the young boy took the key, and was going to take the car out late at night. Because the boy had plans to spin the night at a friend’s house. As far as I’m concerned, I feel like this is one big elaborate lie. I hope I’m wrong, but we’ll never know the truth. So Saturday was ruined, as far as what my son had planned.

Seems to me, they don’t have boundaries, or don’t respect people’s boundaries. Why would a person go into another persons bag? Why are you even taking something that doesn’t belong to you? To this day ( I don’t care how good of friends or if we are blood relatives) I would NEVER just go into someone’s purse or bag and take something. I will hand them their bag and let them retrieve the item, OR I will make sure they have their eyes on my while I go into their bag, or purse. That’s just me. I know the feeling of having your boundaries crossed or disrespected.

Ok enough about that key. I hope everyone had a great 4th of July. My sister came over with her twins and we had a great dinner. We had brisket, tater salad, baked beans, mac and cheese, aaannd homemade ice cream. Then we had some fure works. The twins had fun lighting them. Our whole street was lit up with fire works and smoke.

Well that’s about all I have for now. But I would like to say that I have given myself a new challenge. That challenge is to make a quilt. But this quilt will be either an American flag, or a Texas flag, or maybe both. However I first need to sell some items so I can get the material to do this challenge. So please shop around my links and help me out. I would greatly appreciate it.

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Time

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Time is an illusion, rising from time
Steep is the mountain which we climb

24 hours in a days time. I remember when I was working, I never had time to do much. I get up go to the gym, then be at work by 6.a.m. Sometimes 5.a.m. I liked going to the gym super early because it wasn’t crowded. So I wasn’t intimidated by the gym rats. I don’t mean it in a bad way. I probably shouldn’t use the term gym rat, but I really mean no harm by it. I did call my supervisor a gym rat once, it was only my second day on the job. Yep you guessed it, STORY TIME. 😁

So, I was working at this company that made valves for fracking. I was hired by a temp agency, as they needed a few people dedicated to cleaning the valves.

The valves have something called polyurethane ( NO CLUE) what that actually is, but it’s some type of hard rubber like material; so you had to heat the valves to a certain temperature in order to cut the polyurethane off, then you had to use a grinder to grind the rest of it off. It sounds easy enough, however that polyurethane is HARD to cut. Quick description of my supervisor, he had chiseled muscles very defined, you knew he spent A LOT of time in the gym. He was also very arrogant, had the Napoleon syndrome. Because he was short. 😂well maybe an inch or 2 taller than me. So after he showed me and the other new guy how to cut them off he had us do one just to see how we did it. Jeremiah went first, boom bam done. Now me. 😶 First off I don’t like people breathing down my neck as I’m learning something new, and Thats JUST what he did. So I heated up the valve got ready to cut and was seriously struggling, he’s behind me “coaching” me along, and I popped off with this is hard to cut, not everybody is a gym rat like you. Jeremiah bout fell out laughing, and Mr. Campbell was beaming with pride, because it informed him that his muscles was recognized.

So as I was saying about time. When you’re working you’re so focused on the day to day agenda you know what times are allotted for each task of the day. Like mine was Monday – Friday wake up 2.a.m. Leave the house by 2:30.a.m be at the gym by 3.a.m. Do 30 – 45 minutes on treadmill( NOT RUNNING) But walking, starting out as a gentle walk and increasing to a kind of speed walk. God knows I was in no shape or form able to run. 😂 but I was working on it. Then I got laid off, and the pLandemic hit. I have always been used to being busy, my time was dedicated to work, and suddenly I had all the freetime I wanted. I didn’t know what to do. All I ever did was wake up go to work, come home and do it again. But I had no work to go to. So I start crafting. Now I’ve taken up sewing. And time is getting away from me. And now I’ve lost my point of this blog. Because I have spent so much time writing it, and at the same time thinking about my projects I need to get finushed. So heres another spontaneous blog with absolutely no content just about time and how it does seem like an illusion. But I leave you with this, cherish your time. Make time and memories with your loved ones. Don’t waste time arguing, especially when it’s a loved one. Because one day will come when we won’t have our loved one to spend time with. But time will always be there. And of course my links 😁

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Housing

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https://www.fox26houston.com/news/kinder-study-finds-housing-crisis-deepening-in-harris-county

I wrote a blog a while back about the place we’re renting. The owener who lives in California wants to sell it. Well last week in Thursday, they had a couple people come by and look at the place. They asked us about flooding. Because back in 2017 Hurricane Harvey hit parts of Texas pretty bad.

Most often once a hurricane touches land it loses strenght and will die out. But not Harvey, no he went back out to the water to get more strenght and came right back inland. Harvey stayed for a full week reeking havoc and causing people’s home to flood in areas that NEVER flooded. The house we was in did get some water, it was up to about the middle of my shinn. However other areas the homes was completely under water. I had just paid my car off a couple months before Harvey came through, and it got flooded.

So one guy asked about tue flooding, and I started explaining that we moved here in 2018 we wasn’t here when Harvey came through, but a neighbor told us the houses on the end got some pretty high waters. The man stops me in mid sentence to tell me there’s a river in the woods, and that he owns 12 other houses up the street. 😶😶 first off it’s rude to ask a question, only to cut a person off so you can brag that you really ALREADY know, but to brag about the fact that you own 12 other homes is arrogant. So I shut up, and in my mind I said ok Mr. braggadocious you won’t get another peep from me. Since you know everything.

But now I stumbled upon this article, and it’s scarey. I have already been looking where we can afford because I am fearful we will have to move once this place sells. But the reality is…. there’s no where. NOTHING is for rent. And if there is a place for rent it is no less than $1500.00 a month. So there’s my blog and here’s my links. Please, consider sharing my links. I am trying so very hard to get this up and running. They say you gotta taste failure before success. Trust me I’ve tasted failure, it BITTER. Now I’d like to try success, that’s gotta taste better. 😁

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Empath And Narcissist Relationship Pt 1

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So this is going to be another short series.

What IS an empath? An empath is someone who feels more empathy than the average person. These people are usually more accurate in recognizing emotions by looking at another person’s face. They are also more likely to recognize emotions earlier than other people and rate those emotions as being more intense.

What IS a narcissist? A disorder in which a person has an inflated sense of self-importance.Narcissistic personality disorder is found more commonly in men. The cause is unknown but likely involves a combination of genetic and environmental factors. It’s not always this cut and dry of an explanation or definition of a narcissist. There are many different types of narcissistic people. I have blogged about the various types. I didn’t go too deep into it because I am no psychologist. I can only speak on my personal experience and knowledge.

Empaths are highly prone to anxiety, and are likely to struggle with digestive issues. They are often sensitive to the needs of others, but may not feel reciprocated.

Empaths have this uncontrollable need to “fix” the “broken” person.

One may ask, are empaths born or are they “created”? Psychology is a tricky thing. I’ve said before I’m no psychologist, I’ve not studied specifically on psychology, but more so focused on myself and my personal experiences. That being said, I have always been fascinated with psychology. So of course I delved into reading a lot of “self help” books. In fact my dad was visiting once and he was an avid reader. He noticed my little collection of books. He of course looked through them, and he found a couple that interested him and barrowed them. Then it was as if we had our own little book club. (I miss him so much) ok I digress. So as I’ve said I’ve delved into self help books; I did this because I needed to find out about myself. I am the person who feels emotions very deeply. I thought I had a 6th sense, just needed to learn how to read it. I could always feel when something bad was about to happen. I would have this gut feeling. ( literally) I would feel anxious, my stomach would be turning flips, my digestive track would be completely out of whack.

I have blogged about being raised by a narcissistic parent. How growing up in that environment, kept me confused. I never understood why I was being yelled at. I didn’t know then what I know now. I understand NOW, WHY, I was and still am her target.

The thing is narcissist are drawn to empaths. Because we have this way of absorbing their feelings or emotions. Most people who are an empath USUALLY have suffered some sort of trauma at a very young age. Childhood neglect or abuse can affect your sensitivity levels as an adult. Trauma such as emotional or physical abuse, or they were raised by alcoholic, depressed, or narcissistic parents.

An empath usually stems from trauma at a very young age. Often empaths are thought of as an old soul. In my case my childhood trauma was the loss of my biological dad. I was so young, but wasn’t oblivious to what was really going on. I remember very well sitting on the couch being concerned with bills, who was going to pay them. I remember being alone to console myself. Now that I’m older, and what patches of memories I have from my childhood, I can see why I associate or identify as an empath. I love to see people happy, and if they have a type of negative energy around them, I tend to make it a point to change that energy to positive, or at least try.

This will do for today. It’s already noon and I have a busy schedule today. But please do come back. I am hoping something from my blogs help at least one person. Maybe something from reading this will resonte with them and they start to take steps to healing from whatever may be troubling them. Because the reality is, we cannot change who people are, but we can work on ourselves, and our responses to the people around us.

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